Human Contact

"lonelee I am so lonelee, and i do not knoooow the words to this soooooong"

I probably could have googled that but 'well researched' is not really something you'd say about my blog. I suspect you also wouldn't say 'clever' 'witty' or 'widely read'.

As you already know I am caring for my dad who has dementia so I don't get out much. To look after him I moved back to my childhood town, where I had just one friend left. It is one of the poorest cities in England, most people move away as soon as they have the opportunity (as I did!). The one friend has two kids, one of them since I've been back, which makes her as inflexible as I am. 

I have never had any trouble making new friends; I'll chat to anyone and have a freakish amount of self confidence. However it turns out it's quite difficult to make friends when you don't meet any people. With no work or classes its hard to get chatting, I can't really grab people in the street and say "will you be my friend?". Many friends said they'd come visit me, most haven't .... they have lives and boyfriends and jobs and things. I (vaguely) remember what that's like. My BFF has, of course - she is the bestest BFF ever and has organised a fabulous treat for my birthday. One other friend has visited but he was a friend / bf crossover.. 

To illustrate, the people I have spoken to ..

Today:        My parents

Yesterday:   My dad and the butcher (who always has a joke at least. "in the     

                 wake of the horsemeat scandal B&Q have had to withdraw their 

                 flooring coz it had laminate (lamb-in-it)

Day Before: My dad, the lady in the post office and the lady in the veg shop.

And Before: My dad, a nurse and the taxi driver.

You get the idea.

Surprisingly (or unsurprisingly if you know the disastrous tale that is my love life) I am not bothered about not having a boyfriend. I'd rather have a puppy for cuddles and I can sort myself out for, you know. Its my birthday next week if anyone wants to buy me a puppy. I miss friends, drinking buddies, weekend lunches, trips to nandos and the cinema on a Wed, wine on the sofa with my bestie. 

However I really don't know how I'd be surviving on the laughable benefits you get for caring if I actually had a social life, the only reason I get to occasionally buy something on eBay (which doesn't get worn anyway coz I never go anywhere) is because I rarely leave the house!

To summarise: buy me a puppy or take me for a drink!